the one where it hurts to even open my eyes

i see the doctor tonight. to fix my fucked up little head. to hopefully take away the migraines and the delusions and the tunnel vision and the tricks and the madness and the crazy. to take away my fucked up vision and my word muddles (thank god for spelling and grammar check). to take away the whispers and the paranoia and the tremors and shakes and the nausea and the facial numbness and the anger and the twitching and the head aches. please make my head stop hurting. these migraines are really wearing me down. i am having trouble faking it. i don't know how much longer i can keep faking.