what a waste of fucking time

i worked so hard. i documented everything. i wrote out all the procedures step-by-step so that if any issues came up, there would be a consistency that could be followed. i believe in great customer service. i believe in treating people fairly. i trained my replacement for every fucking scenario possible so she would feel comfortable dealing with the stress of that job. i spent DAYS upon DAYS creating and updating EVERYTHING so that it was all perfect for the day i left.

today i find out that it's gone. the procedures - dumped. the paper work - thrown out. the files - deleted.

i can't believe i bothered. why did i even think it would make a difference?

so please tell me how to have faith that working hard actually gets you respect. tell me how it is possible that effort and a positive attitude and great service are now optional, instead of mandatory. explain how it's ok to go from being a temp to having a manager's parking stall in just over a year, when there has been a parking wait list with people who have been waiting 3 years for a stall? taking advantage of your position much?

because from what i am witnessing and learning first-hand: those who break the rules for their own agenda, get ahead and those who are honest and work their asses off to make sure things are done right, get fuck all except a cold shoulder and a bunch of empty promises.

CEO: you lied to me. You looked me in the eye and told me this would get better. it never did. and now i am fucked because of it. i have lost so much respect for you. SO much respect.

VP of HR: you could have stopped this long ago. when i came into your office and told you everything, you sounded like you had planned to take action. i doubt you will even notice i am gone once i am done this mat leave coverage. my boss left her job because of YOUR lack of involvement. I will most likely have no permanent job at (insert workplace here) in October because of YOUR lack of involvement. Thanks for nothing.

Former Manager: i hope you are finally starting to realize that I was never the problem. Your staff (as usual) are out of control and are taking advantage of things they KNOW they shouldn't be. But i am sure you dont even notice because you spend so much time ignoring everything around you. Your people skills are horrible. Perhaps taking some communication classes and managerial courses will help you run your department better. Unless you like your temps running around doing whatever they please, and treating people like trash. Your department, your choice. But know that i am not the only one that feels this way.

and to the rest of you: i hope you fucking get everything you have coming to you. cause you damn well know you deserve it you fucking rude incompetent bitches.

end rant.

i need to stop adding more hatred and anger and jadedness and and bitterness to my soul. i can already feel my blood pressure rising.

where is my vodka...